static on channel n i n e

Too bruised to function. No, not physically. Although I almost wish I were so I could take 'Spring Show' off my list of things to stress over.
Been blasting "Into the Storm" by Robert W. Smith on loop.
Hungry, but I refuse to eat dinner with you morons. ( Quite obviously, I'm going to take that back later. )
I need sleep, but there's too much work to be done.

If only I took my own advice.

Don't ask if I'm okay because you know the answer.
Don't reply with your encouraging and optimistic comments because I know what you're going to say. Because I've been telling the same things to myself, but not wanting to believe it. Because all it comes down to is that I'm being lazy & lack the guts to do what I want to. I'm caving in to my desire for no desires.

End result: I rot. The end.



top: down in a hole by matmoon
bottom: Going down? by p0rg

p.s.) My TV actually has no channels at all - not even channel 1.