vibrance

Maybe it's the weather, but there was something magical about these two days.

Something that made me stop on the second story overlooking the school and go "WOW. Look at all the people, mingling and moving in different directions and the patterns of their crossing, swerving, interlacing backpacks. And then - look at that sky! It's such a deep and vivid shade of blue! Look at the way the shadows cut across the crowd in a wobbly line, and the way the sun backlights the veins of all the leaves turning shades of red and orange, making them translucent in a biting contrast of red, green, and blue. How the sun strikes my skin and makes me burn with some kind of deep passion for breathing.

For once, I felt like part of the scheme of something bigger. The world at school exists between the bike racks and 1200 building. But today, I was conscious of rabbits chewing on dry yellow grass beyond those mountains, or into Starbucks where the cashier hands the customer a receipt and 2 nickels. I felt energies, whizzing in every direction. Sunlight beaming, a breeze caressing my face, humans intertwining, grass growing, mountains slowly eroding, oceans lapping against seashores, the mantle beneath me churning...

All this just makes me want to smile, want to run, want to break free of my daily routines of confinement and worry and stress. Want to lay down and just feel life flowing all around me. The same feeling that compelled me to pick up a handful of helicopter leaves and throw them up in the air, as high as I could, and just stare in amazement as they circled back down.

Something magical. Maybe it's the feeling of autumn that I've been deprived of for so long, as I mused to myself how long it'd been since I jumped in a pile of leaves, or been to an apple orchard. Something about the oblique angle of light, the whispering and crackling of leaves as the breeze skids them across the floor, something so uniquely warming. Some happy feeling that had been buried in me long ago by hot California summers.

I really don't know. But I guess that shouldn't really matter. Just savor it while it's here. :)

Autumn by hermiz [deviantart]